Life in UNIMAS 1

Wonder why I blog so many posts today?
Because I wanna let u catch up my life here in Sarawak..
Or maybe what I feel since the day I came here.
Since orientation, seldom I have time to online like today.
Now I free from friends, lectures, washing clothes and walking also.
Hahaha..
I like quiet, so I can stay alone..
I’m enjoying the quietness but not loneliness.
Although I don’t have friends company me to eat.
So I plan to eat noodles cups for my lunch and dinner.
I have never stay in my room for whole day yet
So I can try it out now.
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27th of June:
I reach airport in Kuching with my friends.
First time come to Sarawak. Excited and hope for the best although this is not my choice.
From airport to UNIMAS, about 30 minutes journey.
Then, go daftar and get my room key.

*never ever bring so many luggages. I half die to take it to my kolej.

28th of June:
Room settled.
Go explore UNIMAS and Kota Samarahan with friends.
Buy some things and ate KFC.
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Orientation:
Actually it was interesting.
Although it was quite tiring..almost everyday not enough sleep.
Had to prepare persembahan in a short time.
Learn to know friends come from different places,
Learns to be brave to introduce myself,
Coz I’m keep doing that since the day I came here.
Learns lots of refreshment, actually it is funny although it looked stupid sometimes..
Muahahaha…
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1st week in UNIMAS after orientation :
5th of July
Orientation finished.
Go to Kuching with friend.
Buy things at Averise and Boulevard.

6th of July
Go my faculty and Centre of Language Studies several times to copy the timetable.
Then, we were told to copy it from CTF 1 and CTF 2.
After finish copy, a complete and well-printed timetable can get from my faculty.
Haiz..that’s our system in UNIMAS.

7th of July
Bad news : My laptop broken down

8th of July
Daftar senggang.
Go late because I don’t feel like wana to skip class.
At the end, I can’t get the senggang I want.
The senggang I forced to choose is basketball club.
Everyday studied UPIT whenever there is time.

Zoology orientation (3 days 2 nights- 10/7 til 12/7 ):
Our course is the fastest among others courses that have orientation.
Venue : Matang Wildlife Centre

First time set up a camp and sleep in the camp.
Played “burung pungguk”
Go for jungle trekking and lawatan ke kawasan captivity
Learn how to make a trap and traped bats, birds and insects in the forest.
Frogging at the 2nd night and persembahan at the late night.
Go in and out forest a few times at the same day til I feel that I had muscle pain.
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2nd week after orientation :
A week that I never feel so bad in my life. Y? It’s confidential.
Early went to register the course and skipped the General Genetics lecture.
I think this is the right move as many late comer can’t get the generics courses’ time they had planned.
Then, every night go cais to study UPIT until they closed since my laptop broken down already.

15th of July
Evening time go senggang alone at kolej sakura.
Feel disappointed that who had promised to have dinner together didn’t come
What a friend for??
Get back my laptop. It makes me feel that laptop is so important when without it, it is not a easy life since i already get used wit it's company. A friend that will never leave me.

16th of July
UPIT test.
Go hand in the ptptn contract
Get my new labcoat already which is RM48

18th of July
Sukan air
Go hand in the DPT at BheP
Learn cheers and go cheers from 8am to 5pm.
Actually I half way go back my kolej sleep already..haha..
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That’s the end. If you really got read through all, I appreciate that.
*Since no any photos are posted up here, I know it is quite bored. But I can’t do anything because I don’t have camera. Really sorry about that, actually I also quite sad for not able to own a camera.

是缘抑是什么？

出现酱多巧合，
酱短的时间里对他动心 ，
是好事还是坏事？？

很努力的压抑住自己 ，
想把整颗心冰封住 。
告诉自己应该专注于课业 ，
要减少与他传简讯 ，
跟他少见面。

想用一天时间把他从脑海中删掉 ，
可以吗？
我能做到吗？

一个人待着，
努力的理清头绪，
想着自己应该怎样做。
要好好的利用今天的时间 ，
酱难得只剩下自己一个 ，
没有上课，也没有人会吵我或干扰我 。

一次心动比不上一百次的感动

觉得自己有一点点的心动 ，
是因为感动了吗？
还是变得习惯他的存在，陪伴，关怀。。
其实他并不是自己想象中的王子 ，
之前也不曾想过接受他。
很害怕会做错决定 ，
因为我不想去伤害人 。
也担心这对他不公平 ，
因为我认为自己无法作出同等的回报 。
跟一个没有你喜欢他将多的人一起 ，
你会快乐吗？

明天会更好吗？

你们曾担心过自己的明天吗？

我昨天就是这样，
担心自己是否过得了明天吗？
“明天不一定更好，但更好的明天一定会来”
有听过这句话吧？
我在质疑这句话的可信度。。

更好的明天真的会来吗？
一桩又一柱的事情发生了，
我的明天并没有变得更好，
反而变得越差。。
每天都在担心，
担心自己和家人的安全，
担心会否明天的新闻头版是自己。。。

一则又一则的家庭悲剧太多了。。
谁敢肯定下一则会不会轮到自己。。

对于那些家庭幸福美满的，
我衷心地祝福你们，
也希望你们能珍惜这一切。

神啊。。
我也只是祈求能有平静的日子，
像平常人一样的过活，
我的要求有很过份吗？？

谢谢你！！

其实，
能和他聊真是
一件很开心的事。

兴奋的程度，
竟然是到晚上也睡不着，
脑细胞一直处于兴奋的状态。。

他的话，
给了我强心剂。。
他总像一个大哥哥，
懂很多，
能给很多不错的建议。。

真的真的，
很感谢他。。

谢谢你！！Mr. C 。。

我累了。。

呼吸变得沉重 ，
肩像扛了石头变得很重很重 ，
胸口觉得闷闷的 ，
是自己的身体累了 ，
还是心灵毒素累积太多 。。

唉 。。
轻轻叹了一口气 ，
又有谁能够帮我 。。
本想找他谈 ，
却迟疑了 。。

好害怕又会喜欢他 ，
尤其在心灵最脆弱的时候 ，
最容易对他有幻想。。
这是自己最不希望发生的 ，
现在这样是最好的 ，
无论对他还是对我 ，
不是吗?

大力的吸了一口气 ，
只希望忧虑能快点结束 。
所有的负面情绪请放过我吧 ！！

神啊 ，
请你救救我 ！！

爱情？

不懂从何时开始，
我变得，
不再对爱情有憧憬。

曾经的他，
是那么遥不可及..
那么优秀..
那么的吸引人...

正所谓，
“得不到的
永远都是最珍贵的”
间接的，
时间久了，
变得对他不再有期望。
缓缓地，
再变得不再对爱有期望。

现时的我，
只想为未来努力。
这样的付出才能与得到成正比，
你说是不是呢？